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The nights of crying myself 2 sleep are over
Cuz as time passes by i keep getting older
But i still carry this heavy weight on my shoulders
And the heavier it gets my heart gets colder
I always think about the things i neva told her
Like the missed oppurtunities and the things i cudve showed her
i used to think how wud it be if we had more time 2 spend
But now all i think bout is how much time will it take my heart 2 mend
And they say time heals all wounds and i know its hard to prove
But how much time is soon
Cuz when im hurting it seems as if my time doesnt move
So i try to live in my dreams
Cuz in my dreams she still here
I relive all the memories we eva had that i still hold dear
And reality is what i fear
Bcuz its become my worst nightmare
And the feeling i have no one can share
Cuz no one had to bear the pain i had to
And if i keep the pain inside to hide
Where wud all my happiness and peace reside
And its like evrytime i make a stride to get on the right path
I meet an obstacle i cant pass bcuz of memories of my past
And i jus wonder how much more pain i can take
Before this weight on my shoulders jus caves in and breaks
Me as a whole
Cuz the more i take on it jus leaves a void and hole inside
And u used to be the person i can come to and confide in about my problems
And if there was any answer u wudve known
But now that ur not here with me i have to figure it out all alone

Previous poem explanied....

That last poem i posted was not something i went thru personaly. I was inspired to write this poem by a story i seen on tv. I believe that people who abuse drugs are people in search of love or happiness. My heart goes out to all those who feel that the only way they can enjoy life or get thru life is to constantly abuse drugs. I wrote this poem in order to show people how easy it is to get stuck in that lifestyle. So plz give me feedback and let me kno what u think about it...

U Told Me...

U told me u were done
U told me it was over
U said u didn't like who u had become
So u wanted to be sober
U told me u cudnt take it
All the needles and pins
U said u cudnt face it
The fact that u were goin over the deep end
U told me u didn't need rehab
U said u cud manage it
U said if u thought u might have
U wudnt say u cud handle it
So I believed it was true
And I let u walk loose
I took my eye off u
While u kept up the abuse
So I came 2 u again and u asked for help
not thinkin about ur contradiction
U said u cudnt find urself
And u cudnt fight the addiction
So I sat and listened
thinkin "am i really hearing this"
And waited until u were finished
To see if u were really serious
So I gave u my advice
And told u I'm always here 2 help
U said u owed me ur life
That I cudnt imagine how u felt
So u went to rehab
In order to get clean
U wanted to kno how much time u had
Cuz u didn't wanna be seen
So then u fled the scene
About a month 2 early
U thought u were done being a feign
u weren't even worried
But it came back 2 haunt u
U went back to ur old ways
Even though u didn't want to
But u kno what they say
"Once an addict, always an addict"
No matter how hard u try
Its hard to break a bad habit
Some try until they die
And I don't kno why
U wud turn back to that life
A life full of cries
A life where u always have to fight
Because u told me u were done
U told me it was over
U told me u didn't like who u had become
U said u wanted to be sober
But I don't know why
U told me all lies

"Lost Treasure" continued...

Its been a year and some months
Still only u that I want
And you've been away for too long
So I kno its love and not lust
But I cheated on u
And I broke your heart and our trust
Now Don't know what 2 do
Cuz being with u is a must
But u said u moved on
And didn't wanna string me along
So I tried to do the same
But my feelings for u r too strong
And I can't get you off my mind
No matta how hard I try
to say there's another girl like you I can find
Would be such a lie
Cuz the love we shared
Could neva be compared
to be together was our destiny
and if u come back
I promise to only give u the best of me
Never thought this love
Would only be a memory
Neva thought losing u
Would be the end of me
If only I knew then
What u meant to me
I wudnt be sitting here
Wondering if u missing me
cuz all its causing me is pain and misery
And i Jus want it to all become history
So in my life u can again be current
So I can think about what u are 2 me
Rather than what u weren't
Cuz I can't get u off my mind
No matta how hard I try
To say there's another like u I can find
Wud be such a lie
Cuz the love we shared
Could neva be compared
to be together was our destiny
and if u come back
I promise to only give u the best of me

Lost Treasure

The pain I caused u was neva intended
I still regret the day that our love ended
I still reminisce on the time we were spending
Back when we were both in sync and our lives were amending
I wish i cud go back and change it all for a happy ending
But now its too late
Cuz another man has ur heart
And I made my choice
And it was 4 us 2 be apart
And I kno now it cudve been the biggest mistake of my life
But I still have to fake like I was right
And say everything happens 4 a reason
And some people are only meant to be in ur life for a season
But when I was with you It felt like evry season was spring
So I kno it wasn't jus a season fling
Cuz I used to imagine getting u a ring
And starting a family
But maybe the thought scared me away
Bcuz I was to young to already be wit the one that wud lay
By my side until my dying day
So I began to go astray
Cuz my thoughts made me feel guilty
Cuz I didn't believe I was worth ur love
2 be doubting somethin that was orchestrated from above
But I didn't kno how 2 express it
So I did my dirt
And not once did I think about u being hurt
And I kno it was selfish
But baby girl I cudnt help it
I didn't kno what 2 do
But I had enuf respect 4 u
2 not lie 2 u
So when I told u what I did
And assured u it was true
Shortly after that I told u we were thru
Bcuz u deserved more
And I didn't think I cud be the man u were looking for
And now I now the choice I made was poor
But I had my reasons
I wanted u 2 be happy
But we were meant to be
And u knew but I was 2 scared 2 see
That u living happily
Wud be spending ur life wit me
But now I have to live wit the fact that it might be to late
And that I might've already sealed my fate

Seasons Change

A beautiful tree where all the birds sing
How wonderful it is in the summer and spring
All the joyous things these seasons will bring
Food, water, and colorful leaves
are some of the wonderful things this beautiful tree will receive
but as the days grow shorter and the nights become longer
problems will appear and the tree will have to grow stronger
because fall is approaching and the leaves will dissapear
and the tree will become bare
and it seems like no one really cares
but if thats not enough
theres more problems the tree will have to bear
because winter is near
which is something most would fear
because the snow will fall heavy
and really bury you
but the beautiful tree doesnt give up now
it keeps standing tall
because if it got through the fall
then surely it will make it through the harshest winter of them all
because the beautiful tree knows its not the end
because the season of spring will soon begin

Feedback???

Ok...these last 2 pieces ive been playing around with for a few weeks. So i want you guys to let me know what you think (on my other pieces 2 please). On another note, this next one im going to post was written for a very strong woman. Someone that has played an important role in my life these past few years. She has been almost like a mother to me and she was diagnosed with breast cancer last year. But as i said before she's a very strong woman and now she is cancer free. So being that this month is breast cancer awareness month...i dedicate this next one to her and every woman who has fought the battle of cancer and came out on top.

Commited To You

Loving u got me so high
That if I ever fall off
I'll be sure to die
And to you I wud neva lie
Bcuz what I feel is tru
And I'm tryna spend the rest of my life wit u
And when I'm wit u I feel like I can get thru anything
And any ring I will get for u
Jus to show u a small thing my love cud do
Jus waiting for the day u begin 2 see
What me and u cud eventually be
Loving each other so passionately
And in the past we will neva be
Cuz our future I cud clearly see
Jus waitin for the present to catch the drift
Cuz ur presence is truly a gift
So I treasure it with my life
And I'm tryna combine our sight
So we cud see the same
So I try and pick ur brain
To see if In ur memory I left a stain
And my name jus stuck
And with any luck
U can't eva forget me
Cuz when I get down on one knee
And tell u we shud spend our eternity
Together
Cuz ill love u wit my heart,soul, and entire being
I jus hope u accept for the same reason
Cuz u fit me so perfectly
That loving u
Is like loving me
And I love myself 2 death
So u'll be in my heart till my last breath

Love Lost

As I sit back and think about what we used 2 be
Its becoming more clear to me
That it was neva what I thought it to be
I don't kno how I cudnt see
That all that time all u wanted was to be free
Free of me
Apparently
But a parent u made me
And that changed me
But I won't eva forget the way u played me
All the pain and emotions drained me
But then my baby boy came
And after that I was neva the same
Cuz I neva knew I cud love someone more than myself
But even that cudnt change the way I felt
about you
So I'm sitting here thinkin what am I 2 do
Cuz I don't know how ima get over this
let alone get through
Cuz I loved u
But u didn't feel the same
When u said u did
U said it in vain
Cuz u neva loved urself
So how cud I believe
u cud love someone else
But my feelings blinded me
And the pain u caused
I don't think I cud eva put behind me
I don't kno how I didn't see
This is not how its supposed to be
Cuz all I wanted was a family
And live with them forever happily
So i kno this can't be the life for me
Cuz my son can't grow up without his dad
Cuz that hits home too close to me
Cuz I neva had mine
And I wud be lying
If I said it neva affected me
So I'm willing to be a man and try and work this out for what I need
If u wud be willing to be a lady and end this pointless bout for our seed
And try and get on one accord
Cuz losing my son and family
is something I can't afford

Pursuit of Happiness

Neva knew something this common wud be so hard 2 find
Neva thought something so simple wud be so complex in my mind
Something everyone craves
but very few get 2 experience
Something ive came close to grasping
but cud rarely get near it
Something so practical
but yet so magical
Something you cant describe
Something you cant deny
Not really physical
but something so visible
Something that has truly
eluded me my whole life
Something i think about
almost every night
How do obtain something
thats so right
How can i see something
thats not visible
How can i feel something
thats not physical
How can i find something
when i dont know where to look
When i look at other people
and see for them, how long it took
I cudnt help but wonder
when will it be my turn?
and then anotha question dawned on me.....
will i eva be Happy?

Losing My Way

When I look in my eyes its my pain that glows
I don't understand how it seems no one still knows
Because through my heart hatred flows
And its the love that goes
No matta how hard I try to slow it
I still manage to show it
I kno my name
But I don't kno who I am
Cuz i'm not the person I used to be
I'm not the person people used to see
So i'm tryna find a way to change it
Or somehow rearrange it
But I can't seem to cage it
Cuz the rage don't wanna stay in
Its been held in for too long
And now I can see it was wrong
To try and hold it in
Cuz since it cudnt leave
Its home has been in me
So now I'm tryna fight it
My fear I tried to hide it
My tongue I tried to bite it
But it didn't wanna stay quiet
And then it began to riot
And gave me fuel and fire
and bridges began to burn
And I can't turn back,
no I can't u turn
Cuz its like a one way street
And I lost control of my feet
And I'm goin down this path
That seems won't eva pass
And I'm moving so fast
It seems I'm loosing my past
Bcuz the road has gotten so dark
All I need is a light
to lead me thru the night
Cuz I can't fight what I can't see
I can't fight what's within me
So I'm tryna get it all out
B4 my time runs out
but at what cost
What would I lose
How could I choose
Don't kno what to do
Cuz this overflow of anger
Is only leading to danger
Jus tryna avoid the day
when I become a complete stranger

Still Coming Soon...(lol)

Ok still putting some finishing touches on the last one i finished but ima post 2 more 2day. So just leave ur comments. Let me know what you thinking about after you read each one.

Coming Soon...

Now i have one that i just finished yesterday, but im gonna wait to post it because im still putting some finishing touches on it. So it will be up soon. On another note, i need you guys to leave some comments or feedback. Thats the only way im going to know what u guys wanna read. Give me some ideas. Im open to them all............

"Life"

We live in a world of imperfections
A world where things aren't always as they seem
A place that believes in equal but seperate
And doesn't care about anyones dreams
A place that covers your eyes with an invisible cloth of lies
And no matter how hard you try
You jus can't seem to break free
Its because they only let you see
What they want you to see
And what you see is the world in perfect harmony
Full of joy and carefree
Love and togetherness
And now this way you'll miss
All the problems out people face
So now you can't achieve success in life
And the only way to stop this is if we put up a fight
Fight them by uncovering our real eyes
So we can realize
The real lies
And expose them for what they really are
This way we can break free from this life behind "bars"
This life in a "cage"
This life full of rage
This life where we can't get along
This life where nothing but negative conclusions are drawn
When they look at our face
This life where we're not judged by our skills or character
But rather by our race
This life where we have to deal with being treated as inferior
Because of what's on outside and not the interior
This life where we're stuck in a maze
Stuck in this phase
Stuck in this age of "segregation" and hate
This life where we can't escape the past
So then people wonder, how long will it last?
How long do we have to be opressed?
How long do we have to fight?
How long do we have to live in this thing we call life?

On to the next one.....

Now this next one ima post has the same title of the previous one. Its entitled "life", but its very different from the one before it. I wrote this one about three years ago and i decided to post it because its very personal to me. So im going to share it with the rest of you. Leave some comments please.

Life???

All these thoughts running through my mind
As I sit here and try to find
The right words to define
The meaning of life
And the more I sit and concentrate
And let my thoughts contemplate
The more it seems to complicate
My whole perception of life
Because if my life is controlled by fate
Then I can't control
this certain state
My life is in
Or when my lifes to end
But if I'm supposed to have a destiny
Then is God really testing me
And sending his blessings
In the form of lifes lessons
To see if i really utilize them
Or try to deny them
And let fate take control
And jus wait to see how my life unfolds?
If not
Then what is the plot
Of my life that fate has drew up
Why does everything in my life seem to screw up
And since I can't control it
Am I supposed to jus give up
And fall down
Or should I believe I have a destiny
And that God is really blessing me
And that I can overcome
And survive until my struggles are done
And live a joyous life
Free of pain
Free of rain
And let my life shine
A life so divine
I don't think anyone will ever find the true meaning of life
But when it comes to mine there's no more questions in me
Cuz I kno ill fufill my destiny

Does Life really have a definition?

Ok guys. This next one im going to post is about trying to find a meaning to life. I was sitting down and thinking one night and the thought just popped up in my head. "Why do we live here on earth"? "What is our purpose hear"?. So i began writing to see if i could clarify some of things. So comment on this next one and let me know what u think....

Dreamer

I got a dream strong enuf 2 get me out my situation
But it might be 2 strong where I can't come 2 realization
That it cud be real
But sometimes it feels
Like its sitting right here
So I pray dear God
Please give me the strength
To go ahead and handle this
And sometimes I wish
I had a genie 2 grant me my evry wish
But he'll probably get upset when he says
I only have three and I hand him a list
And I used 2 reminisce on the times when I was kid
And realize those are the memories I miss
Cuz I had no struggles and pain
And no worries but all hopes 2 reach fame
And evrybody knowing my name
But damn
I'm saying
Right now its so lame
To sit back and dream about the fortune and fame
But I can't worry about the rest of the world
Cuz now I'm grown
So I gotta go out and get my own
Its time to stand up and see the light
Man up and don't worry about how hard and long ima have to fight
Cuz in my sight
I can see
My reward clearly
And I barely
See anyway I can fail
If I strive 2 be the head
And stop tryna fit in wit the tail
Cuz no matter how big my dream is
I still have hope and faith
So I cud no longer wait
Or this mediocrity will be my fate

"Tour of my mind"

I go by the name Yung_Poet and im new to this whole idea of a blog. So if i dont post enough for you (or i post too much for you) please dont judge me (lol). Ill be posting mostly my written pieces that i have and is still coming up with (as you can see from my last post). When i dont have a piece ready to be posted, most of the time i'll jus post whats on my mind. Im a very open minded-out of the box thinker, so if i offend anyone or post somethin you dont agree with, like i said before please dont judge me. They're only Soulful Thoughts....

Declaration to Write

The doorway to my heart
And the outlet to my thoughts
The spoken words of my soul
The secrets from inside that no one knows
My emotion flows from my pen
Like the spring breeze blows or the summer wind
But then again
When I stop and think
It flows more like the paint
From a painters brush
So I must
Be an artist
And my paper
Must be my canvas
But when my train of thought
Gets stuck on the tracks
Its like evrything else is jus held back
And my whole world turns black
In fact
Its like nothing else matters
Cuz if my thoughts can't gather
Then I wud rather
be left without a conscience
And jus lay here and die
Bcuz I cant be myself
If no one knows how I felt
And I can't be me
If no one can see
Where I'm coming from and who I plan 2 be
And where I'm destined 2 be
And if I can't speak free
I can't live happily
Knowing I'm hiding inside of a shell
Falling so deep down this well
Until I fell
So deep that's its like I'm living in hell
And that's something I wud neva succumb 2
And I don't kno what I wud come 2
If I didn't have my pen and pad
I guess as long as I have them though
Thing cud neva be that bad