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The nights of crying myself 2 sleep are over
Cuz as time passes by i keep getting older
But i still carry this heavy weight on my shoulders
And the heavier it gets my heart gets colder
I always think about the things i neva told her
Like the missed oppurtunities and the things i cudve showed her
i used to think how wud it be if we had more time 2 spend
But now all i think bout is how much time will it take my heart 2 mend
And they say time heals all wounds and i know its hard to prove
But how much time is soon
Cuz when im hurting it seems as if my time doesnt move
So i try to live in my dreams
Cuz in my dreams she still here
I relive all the memories we eva had that i still hold dear
And reality is what i fear
Bcuz its become my worst nightmare
And the feeling i have no one can share
Cuz no one had to bear the pain i had to
And if i keep the pain inside to hide
Where wud all my happiness and peace reside
And its like evrytime i make a stride to get on the right path
I meet an obstacle i cant pass bcuz of memories of my past
And i jus wonder how much more pain i can take
Before this weight on my shoulders jus caves in and breaks
Me as a whole
Cuz the more i take on it jus leaves a void and hole inside
And u used to be the person i can come to and confide in about my problems
And if there was any answer u wudve known
But now that ur not here with me i have to figure it out all alone

Previous poem explanied....

That last poem i posted was not something i went thru personaly. I was inspired to write this poem by a story i seen on tv. I believe that people who abuse drugs are people in search of love or happiness. My heart goes out to all those who feel that the only way they can enjoy life or get thru life is to constantly abuse drugs. I wrote this poem in order to show people how easy it is to get stuck in that lifestyle. So plz give me feedback and let me kno what u think about it...

U Told Me...

U told me u were done
U told me it was over
U said u didn't like who u had become
So u wanted to be sober
U told me u cudnt take it
All the needles and pins
U said u cudnt face it
The fact that u were goin over the deep end
U told me u didn't need rehab
U said u cud manage it
U said if u thought u might have
U wudnt say u cud handle it
So I believed it was true
And I let u walk loose
I took my eye off u
While u kept up the abuse
So I came 2 u again and u asked for help
not thinkin about ur contradiction
U said u cudnt find urself
And u cudnt fight the addiction
So I sat and listened
thinkin "am i really hearing this"
And waited until u were finished
To see if u were really serious
So I gave u my advice
And told u I'm always here 2 help
U said u owed me ur life
That I cudnt imagine how u felt
So u went to rehab
In order to get clean
U wanted to kno how much time u had
Cuz u didn't wanna be seen
So then u fled the scene
About a month 2 early
U thought u were done being a feign
u weren't even worried
But it came back 2 haunt u
U went back to ur old ways
Even though u didn't want to
But u kno what they say
"Once an addict, always an addict"
No matter how hard u try
Its hard to break a bad habit
Some try until they die
And I don't kno why
U wud turn back to that life
A life full of cries
A life where u always have to fight
Because u told me u were done
U told me it was over
U told me u didn't like who u had become
U said u wanted to be sober
But I don't know why
U told me all lies

"Lost Treasure" continued...

Its been a year and some months
Still only u that I want
And you've been away for too long
So I kno its love and not lust
But I cheated on u
And I broke your heart and our trust
Now Don't know what 2 do
Cuz being with u is a must
But u said u moved on
And didn't wanna string me along
So I tried to do the same
But my feelings for u r too strong
And I can't get you off my mind
No matta how hard I try
to say there's another girl like you I can find
Would be such a lie
Cuz the love we shared
Could neva be compared
to be together was our destiny
and if u come back
I promise to only give u the best of me
Never thought this love
Would only be a memory
Neva thought losing u
Would be the end of me
If only I knew then
What u meant to me
I wudnt be sitting here
Wondering if u missing me
cuz all its causing me is pain and misery
And i Jus want it to all become history
So in my life u can again be current
So I can think about what u are 2 me
Rather than what u weren't
Cuz I can't get u off my mind
No matta how hard I try
To say there's another like u I can find
Wud be such a lie
Cuz the love we shared
Could neva be compared
to be together was our destiny
and if u come back
I promise to only give u the best of me

Lost Treasure

The pain I caused u was neva intended
I still regret the day that our love ended
I still reminisce on the time we were spending
Back when we were both in sync and our lives were amending
I wish i cud go back and change it all for a happy ending
But now its too late
Cuz another man has ur heart
And I made my choice
And it was 4 us 2 be apart
And I kno now it cudve been the biggest mistake of my life
But I still have to fake like I was right
And say everything happens 4 a reason
And some people are only meant to be in ur life for a season
But when I was with you It felt like evry season was spring
So I kno it wasn't jus a season fling
Cuz I used to imagine getting u a ring
And starting a family
But maybe the thought scared me away
Bcuz I was to young to already be wit the one that wud lay
By my side until my dying day
So I began to go astray
Cuz my thoughts made me feel guilty
Cuz I didn't believe I was worth ur love
2 be doubting somethin that was orchestrated from above
But I didn't kno how 2 express it
So I did my dirt
And not once did I think about u being hurt
And I kno it was selfish
But baby girl I cudnt help it
I didn't kno what 2 do
But I had enuf respect 4 u
2 not lie 2 u
So when I told u what I did
And assured u it was true
Shortly after that I told u we were thru
Bcuz u deserved more
And I didn't think I cud be the man u were looking for
And now I now the choice I made was poor
But I had my reasons
I wanted u 2 be happy
But we were meant to be
And u knew but I was 2 scared 2 see
That u living happily
Wud be spending ur life wit me
But now I have to live wit the fact that it might be to late
And that I might've already sealed my fate

Seasons Change

A beautiful tree where all the birds sing
How wonderful it is in the summer and spring
All the joyous things these seasons will bring
Food, water, and colorful leaves
are some of the wonderful things this beautiful tree will receive
but as the days grow shorter and the nights become longer
problems will appear and the tree will have to grow stronger
because fall is approaching and the leaves will dissapear
and the tree will become bare
and it seems like no one really cares
but if thats not enough
theres more problems the tree will have to bear
because winter is near
which is something most would fear
because the snow will fall heavy
and really bury you
but the beautiful tree doesnt give up now
it keeps standing tall
because if it got through the fall
then surely it will make it through the harshest winter of them all
because the beautiful tree knows its not the end
because the season of spring will soon begin

Feedback???

Ok...these last 2 pieces ive been playing around with for a few weeks. So i want you guys to let me know what you think (on my other pieces 2 please). On another note, this next one im going to post was written for a very strong woman. Someone that has played an important role in my life these past few years. She has been almost like a mother to me and she was diagnosed with breast cancer last year. But as i said before she's a very strong woman and now she is cancer free. So being that this month is breast cancer awareness month...i dedicate this next one to her and every woman who has fought the battle of cancer and came out on top.