Love Lost

As I sit back and think about what we used 2 be
Its becoming more clear to me
That it was neva what I thought it to be
I don't kno how I cudnt see
That all that time all u wanted was to be free
Free of me
Apparently
But a parent u made me
And that changed me
But I won't eva forget the way u played me
All the pain and emotions drained me
But then my baby boy came
And after that I was neva the same
Cuz I neva knew I cud love someone more than myself
But even that cudnt change the way I felt
about you
So I'm sitting here thinkin what am I 2 do
Cuz I don't know how ima get over this
let alone get through
Cuz I loved u
But u didn't feel the same
When u said u did
U said it in vain
Cuz u neva loved urself
So how cud I believe
u cud love someone else
But my feelings blinded me
And the pain u caused
I don't think I cud eva put behind me
I don't kno how I didn't see
This is not how its supposed to be
Cuz all I wanted was a family
And live with them forever happily
So i kno this can't be the life for me
Cuz my son can't grow up without his dad
Cuz that hits home too close to me
Cuz I neva had mine
And I wud be lying
If I said it neva affected me
So I'm willing to be a man and try and work this out for what I need
If u wud be willing to be a lady and end this pointless bout for our seed
And try and get on one accord
Cuz losing my son and family
is something I can't afford