Life???

All these thoughts running through my mind
As I sit here and try to find
The right words to define
The meaning of life
And the more I sit and concentrate
And let my thoughts contemplate
The more it seems to complicate
My whole perception of life
Because if my life is controlled by fate
Then I can't control
this certain state
My life is in
Or when my lifes to end
But if I'm supposed to have a destiny
Then is God really testing me
And sending his blessings
In the form of lifes lessons
To see if i really utilize them
Or try to deny them
And let fate take control
And jus wait to see how my life unfolds?
If not
Then what is the plot
Of my life that fate has drew up
Why does everything in my life seem to screw up
And since I can't control it
Am I supposed to jus give up
And fall down
Or should I believe I have a destiny
And that God is really blessing me
And that I can overcome
And survive until my struggles are done
And live a joyous life
Free of pain
Free of rain
And let my life shine
A life so divine
I don't think anyone will ever find the true meaning of life
But when it comes to mine there's no more questions in me
Cuz I kno ill fufill my destiny