Previous poem explanied....

That last poem i posted was not something i went thru personaly. I was inspired to write this poem by a story i seen on tv. I believe that people who abuse drugs are people in search of love or happiness. My heart goes out to all those who feel that the only way they can enjoy life or get thru life is to constantly abuse drugs. I wrote this poem in order to show people how easy it is to get stuck in that lifestyle. So plz give me feedback and let me kno what u think about it...

U Told Me...

U told me u were done
U told me it was over
U said u didn't like who u had become
So u wanted to be sober
U told me u cudnt take it
All the needles and pins
U said u cudnt face it
The fact that u were goin over the deep end
U told me u didn't need rehab
U said u cud manage it
U said if u thought u might have
U wudnt say u cud handle it
So I believed it was true
And I let u walk loose
I took my eye off u
While u kept up the abuse
So I came 2 u again and u asked for help
not thinkin about ur contradiction
U said u cudnt find urself
And u cudnt fight the addiction
So I sat and listened
thinkin "am i really hearing this"
And waited until u were finished
To see if u were really serious
So I gave u my advice
And told u I'm always here 2 help
U said u owed me ur life
That I cudnt imagine how u felt
So u went to rehab
In order to get clean
U wanted to kno how much time u had
Cuz u didn't wanna be seen
So then u fled the scene
About a month 2 early
U thought u were done being a feign
u weren't even worried
But it came back 2 haunt u
U went back to ur old ways
Even though u didn't want to
But u kno what they say
"Once an addict, always an addict"
No matter how hard u try
Its hard to break a bad habit
Some try until they die
And I don't kno why
U wud turn back to that life
A life full of cries
A life where u always have to fight
Because u told me u were done
U told me it was over
U told me u didn't like who u had become
U said u wanted to be sober
But I don't know why
U told me all lies

"Lost Treasure" continued...

Its been a year and some months
Still only u that I want
And you've been away for too long
So I kno its love and not lust
But I cheated on u
And I broke your heart and our trust
Now Don't know what 2 do
Cuz being with u is a must
But u said u moved on
And didn't wanna string me along
So I tried to do the same
But my feelings for u r too strong
And I can't get you off my mind
No matta how hard I try
to say there's another girl like you I can find
Would be such a lie
Cuz the love we shared
Could neva be compared
to be together was our destiny
and if u come back
I promise to only give u the best of me
Never thought this love
Would only be a memory
Neva thought losing u
Would be the end of me
If only I knew then
What u meant to me
I wudnt be sitting here
Wondering if u missing me
cuz all its causing me is pain and misery
And i Jus want it to all become history
So in my life u can again be current
So I can think about what u are 2 me
Rather than what u weren't
Cuz I can't get u off my mind
No matta how hard I try
To say there's another like u I can find
Wud be such a lie
Cuz the love we shared
Could neva be compared
to be together was our destiny
and if u come back
I promise to only give u the best of me

Lost Treasure

The pain I caused u was neva intended
I still regret the day that our love ended
I still reminisce on the time we were spending
Back when we were both in sync and our lives were amending
I wish i cud go back and change it all for a happy ending
But now its too late
Cuz another man has ur heart
And I made my choice
And it was 4 us 2 be apart
And I kno now it cudve been the biggest mistake of my life
But I still have to fake like I was right
And say everything happens 4 a reason
And some people are only meant to be in ur life for a season
But when I was with you It felt like evry season was spring
So I kno it wasn't jus a season fling
Cuz I used to imagine getting u a ring
And starting a family
But maybe the thought scared me away
Bcuz I was to young to already be wit the one that wud lay
By my side until my dying day
So I began to go astray
Cuz my thoughts made me feel guilty
Cuz I didn't believe I was worth ur love
2 be doubting somethin that was orchestrated from above
But I didn't kno how 2 express it
So I did my dirt
And not once did I think about u being hurt
And I kno it was selfish
But baby girl I cudnt help it
I didn't kno what 2 do
But I had enuf respect 4 u
2 not lie 2 u
So when I told u what I did
And assured u it was true
Shortly after that I told u we were thru
Bcuz u deserved more
And I didn't think I cud be the man u were looking for
And now I now the choice I made was poor
But I had my reasons
I wanted u 2 be happy
But we were meant to be
And u knew but I was 2 scared 2 see
That u living happily
Wud be spending ur life wit me
But now I have to live wit the fact that it might be to late
And that I might've already sealed my fate

Seasons Change

A beautiful tree where all the birds sing
How wonderful it is in the summer and spring
All the joyous things these seasons will bring
Food, water, and colorful leaves
are some of the wonderful things this beautiful tree will receive
but as the days grow shorter and the nights become longer
problems will appear and the tree will have to grow stronger
because fall is approaching and the leaves will dissapear
and the tree will become bare
and it seems like no one really cares
but if thats not enough
theres more problems the tree will have to bear
because winter is near
which is something most would fear
because the snow will fall heavy
and really bury you
but the beautiful tree doesnt give up now
it keeps standing tall
because if it got through the fall
then surely it will make it through the harshest winter of them all
because the beautiful tree knows its not the end
because the season of spring will soon begin

Feedback???

Ok...these last 2 pieces ive been playing around with for a few weeks. So i want you guys to let me know what you think (on my other pieces 2 please). On another note, this next one im going to post was written for a very strong woman. Someone that has played an important role in my life these past few years. She has been almost like a mother to me and she was diagnosed with breast cancer last year. But as i said before she's a very strong woman and now she is cancer free. So being that this month is breast cancer awareness month...i dedicate this next one to her and every woman who has fought the battle of cancer and came out on top.

Commited To You

Loving u got me so high
That if I ever fall off
I'll be sure to die
And to you I wud neva lie
Bcuz what I feel is tru
And I'm tryna spend the rest of my life wit u
And when I'm wit u I feel like I can get thru anything
And any ring I will get for u
Jus to show u a small thing my love cud do
Jus waiting for the day u begin 2 see
What me and u cud eventually be
Loving each other so passionately
And in the past we will neva be
Cuz our future I cud clearly see
Jus waitin for the present to catch the drift
Cuz ur presence is truly a gift
So I treasure it with my life
And I'm tryna combine our sight
So we cud see the same
So I try and pick ur brain
To see if In ur memory I left a stain
And my name jus stuck
And with any luck
U can't eva forget me
Cuz when I get down on one knee
And tell u we shud spend our eternity
Together
Cuz ill love u wit my heart,soul, and entire being
I jus hope u accept for the same reason
Cuz u fit me so perfectly
That loving u
Is like loving me
And I love myself 2 death
So u'll be in my heart till my last breath

Love Lost

As I sit back and think about what we used 2 be
Its becoming more clear to me
That it was neva what I thought it to be
I don't kno how I cudnt see
That all that time all u wanted was to be free
Free of me
Apparently
But a parent u made me
And that changed me
But I won't eva forget the way u played me
All the pain and emotions drained me
But then my baby boy came
And after that I was neva the same
Cuz I neva knew I cud love someone more than myself
But even that cudnt change the way I felt
about you
So I'm sitting here thinkin what am I 2 do
Cuz I don't know how ima get over this
let alone get through
Cuz I loved u
But u didn't feel the same
When u said u did
U said it in vain
Cuz u neva loved urself
So how cud I believe
u cud love someone else
But my feelings blinded me
And the pain u caused
I don't think I cud eva put behind me
I don't kno how I didn't see
This is not how its supposed to be
Cuz all I wanted was a family
And live with them forever happily
So i kno this can't be the life for me
Cuz my son can't grow up without his dad
Cuz that hits home too close to me
Cuz I neva had mine
And I wud be lying
If I said it neva affected me
So I'm willing to be a man and try and work this out for what I need
If u wud be willing to be a lady and end this pointless bout for our seed
And try and get on one accord
Cuz losing my son and family
is something I can't afford